My Flowers to her

This day i didn't decide to get up and jump with joy, it was a lot on my heart. The other day I was okay then these memories dashed through me and ran me away. I wanted to run away, to her and only her. Kiss the ground on which she is underneath. I cried in the shower but only for a split second. My mind is chaotic, fighting the emotions and feelings yearning for attention, love and the die'r need for affection. As the shower water hits ma face, my heart falls along with the water. So i spill my love down this drain an it went to these flowers. To do what is needed and being around my seed makes it easier to coop with is pain. The memories still hunts me but my pain is release through the good doing, dancing, poetry, my art, and photography.

Christmas memoir

This day, these past couple of days, have become so obscure. So what is my cure. My chest is tight and my head is light. There must be something that keeps my chest tight. It beats ever so slow, but the receivers see things in slow motion. Something more than a flooded ocean. I'm floatin. Through the mist, fog there is no light. Im out of sight. Sore from the pain that stains my chest. But there are so many people depending on me and supporting me.  

112- Smile

I remember when My sister played there music a lot lol

My Three Stoogies

The goof troop Emani, Lakayla, and Aliyah. Ma Baby and her cousins lol they are a trip together but these are all my kids i would call them. lol I remember when Aliyah didn't know me because I was at the Art Institute of Pittsburgh and I rarely had the money to come home and stuff lol. LaKayla, I basically had her ever since I was like 14, she spent most of her time with me and she Loves her uncle, As she would tell you.  That Gurl is always talking lol, but thats a good thing because I will never tell her to shut up. Emani this lil princess is goofy like her mom and dad but reminds me of her mother a lot from the things that she does, everyday she becomes more and more like her.

POOH BEAR

This picture is of Jasmine her mother and Emani. How I miss this woman so much it is not crazy but I lost more than just the mother of my child, I lost my best friend, my world as I knew it. The only thing that I knew was her. I am strong and can talk about this more than what I am use to and can give people a picture of what I am missing. A woman full of life and have a lot to offer. The one thing that She kept giving me was love and support. My Ride or Die and If she said Jump i would ask how high. She is watching over us, Emani and I. Man the things I would give to have her here with me once again, It would be a crime to commit and 8 years of my life that I would never forget. I LOVE YOU JASMINE PHENIQUE CARNES 8-2-89/ 6-13-89

Emani

Emani Evette Grinter, lol This is my little world, and my only girl. I want another child but that can wait until she is like 5 or so lol, I do this for her and her only. 

Daddy time lol

This is Daddy's lil gurl, well she isn't so little anymore lol. She just turned 2 on the 6th of December. My everything she is the closet thing I have to her mother.

Pointed in the Other Direction

Through art I can express anything, becoming creative and letting someone know what is special about me and Why I do the things that I do. I really want to become more than just what I planned out to be this is why I lay myself back to back because who is going to watch it but me.

Peanut Butter Jelly Time lol

Me and my younger sister

Until next year

This day that I write in my blogg most of everyone hasn't seen. This is me my journey and almost everything in between. My journey is important and I want it to be seen. While I network, design and become that something that is unseen. Indirect light beams and reflections of my former self, I put things down, I try things out like its a trial but more of a test. I noticed that I don't blog for a long period of time. It is just something to past m time. From now on, I am going to wake up and blogg each morning or at least try to. This artistic journey has just started and I want to know how it is going. 

January 1st is the day that everything will become different. Something new will pop up and someone special will be by my side. It seems like everyone that wants me, wants me for something. Its just not the something I'm looking for. I can't describe it but it hurts to hear that you heard something from someone, it  kills me to know what I have done in my past that can still haunt me so far from the city of which I have a past. The 3 years that I have been here in Pittsburgh,Pa I've done nothing but be myself and do me. Not to much worried about who want to see me. I tell people off jump street that I have a baby girl, but I guess in the back of their mind it just makes them curl. The good news is that I've finally brought myself to become mad interested in someone that I don't see everyday, but they way that she thinks. Man she has her mind on straight. The only thing that I'm really cautious about is the fact that she doesn't want kids. She is young and I can understand how things that I say can get stupid real. Sex is not a game anymore it's a thrill. I kinda like the fact that I can think about her so much and almost live more than 10 miles away from her. Things seem as though they want me to go but I'm listening to Jas on this one, she knows best and I just need her to guide my heart, so it can rest. 

Plans

This is a plan that I think that It will never go through. Trying to duck and dodge these bullets (bills) but life is full of them, whether you like it or not. I try to loosen that tight squeeze that i feel like I'm getting out of my stray jacket. Over the small course of my life so far I have realized that things will never go according to plan. The tight squeeze get harder everyday to find out away to pay tha bill and such. It is crazy how things work out but all in all they just might work out if you had someone to help you take care of your debt and bills.

An Artistic Journey: Life

An Artistic Journey: Life: "Wow today is my second day of blogging and things are opinionated already. I think that this will make me or break me, in some sort of way. ..."

Life

Wow today is my second day of blogging and things are opinionated already. I think that this will make me or break me, in some sort of way. It is a part of me growing to be something more than a graphic designer and a web designer, I just have to remember that no day is guaranteed to me and no job is promised unless it is in writing.  

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The Five Stages Of A Giraffe In Quicksand

The Beginning

This Is the beginning. 


The start of something new,
This is for a cause that not only artist can relate to but people in general.
There must be a change in the lifestyle,
A change in life to achieve what is more than just a goal,
It is more than just a Life Changing Appeal.
This is my choice to accelerate, push further than most.
The passion to do what I love at my hands,
Within those hands lays my passion.
Being as Strong as possible to gain access to my 1st chance to show the world how great I can be and how  great I can become.
Never Giving up on this dream, never laying down my pencil and pad.
There is nothing that I cant do.
I will not lose this passion,
I just have to open my range of associates